well...I just got a call from Bill...I have not said much about him for awhile...this past week I was more than a little pissed that he had been in the hospital for four days and no one bothered to feed and water his dogs..or go see about him ...nothin'...but I swallowed it and didn't say nothin'..now today he calls me and tells me there are two tumors on his lung and they can't operate...I don't want to think about it...I don't want to face it...I want to scream...Nooooo....nooooo....noooo.....that is what I feel like tonight...screaming...there are no real words...just sounds and they all come from so deep inside me as be a howl of pain and anguish...
