my boy John came in tonight..I am kinda dreadin' what I know is gonna be bad a thang for us to get through..I have sold things of Ronnie's that he is gonna shit about...it's to late...I dread the hurt I know I have caused but I also know that it is a part of life and none of us get what we want...we get what we are dealt and make the best of it..if Ronnie would have lived it would not have come to a bad pass...but he did not live...I did and in doing that I have to keep body and soul together as best I see fit...I can't help it hurts...it hurt me...but life is life and I have learned to deal with pain....keep lookin' up...face to the wind...set your jaw to it...

                               

I been readin the news...I'm not gonna say nothin cause people don't want to hear it...maybe I'm just cryin wolf...but I don't think so kids...sometimes I wish I lived on forty arces with a mule....this summer will tell the tale I would think...I don't have nothin and when you don't have nothin'...you have nothin' to lose...but I feel bad and worry about my kids...they have worked their ass off tryin to get a little ahead...I'll stop here and brag...I have a bunch of hard hitters...I love my kids and believe me..they have fought all the odds and come out on top...I just hate to think that with the way things stand they will be in for some more rocky times...but the are tough...have had to be...I can always hope I'm wrong...I said the other night I wasn't gonna start again on my blogs about anything off the news...so I won't...try to keep it light...like Will Rogers said...we need all the laughs we can get....right now I can't think of nothin funny...maybe me...sittin' here with my hair all over my head..drinkin coffee ...talkin to a thing like a tv screen....I was out-linin a book in my head last night...had to stop...the gal was to onery last night...I have my days and night reversed ....this is my mornin/....lol...I have to get tilted right side up cause I need to get something done...even if its wrong....this whole week has been a vacation..ha...anyway...Carrie has been off all week and I have not hardly stepped foot outside...what happens when you get old?...you never want to go anywhere...I used to never sit still and now it almost takes dynimite to move me...go back out and read some more news I guess...gonna buy the biggest sack o beans around...thats what I'm gonna do

                                    

the bad weather is north of me...so nothin' goin on here tonight ...maybe later...kids are gettin' ready for bed I hope and soon I will have the house to myself....yeah Granny!!!...went to Wally World today and picked up some mod podge...gonna make some cigarbox purses...something to do...anyway...thats what I'm up to..5'4"..