I guess if there is a lesson in this picture tonight it would be "quiet reflection."..tonorrow would have been my husband's  birthday...I have had a couple of bad nights...but this is the end of the "bad" season for me...it starts at Christmas and doesn't let up until after tomorrow...I was thinkin' about how my heart feels bruised... a deep bruise...I miss him so much...I have filled in all my hours with other stuff and don't allow much time for thinkin' back...but sometimes in the still of the night it comes slippin' in on me...and then just a whisper will cause it to break open and bleed...

I come back in here to post cause this is my kitchen, so to speak, anyway...I have been eye-ball deep in something and gettin' no where...fast.....and while I was takein' a break I ran through a couple of blogs...if you need something to read...go read Scratch for Friday ...it was a very good post...it said it all..just took the words outta my heart and put them out there..uncanny how that happens...sometimes Colo will do that...unreal...but maybe it is that common thread...the one that runs through us all...some are on a different thread though I'm thinkin'...I'm gonna stay close to the house...I want no part of anyones trouble...I wish only the very best for any of you...I have been called names this week that if someone in real life called me they would have to go to the doctor and get a ball bat pryed off their head...but these are the gutless wonders we have to endure and so a friend of mine told me to ignore it and after alot of thought..I think they have the right idea...I will...as Scratch said...turn a page...you will no longer rain on my parade...and darlin..that is what this is...I love you guys and if I can keep away from the thing that is drivein' me...I will be around later ..stop and chat...ain't gonna take that much of your time..