gonna go find some music...kids are "hawg wild"...we went to pick walnuts yesterday...what a trip...we got a load though and plan to go again in the mornin'...today we went to town and paid bills...ex-dil is at work now and so it's just me and the rug rats...I'm sittin' here at my computer and as I look up I can see the highway as it is across the field from where I sit...I watch it...and someday...who knows what might come rollin' down that gravel....never know...never know...I was gonna wait til later but I feel like these walls are closin in on me and I'm just short of stuck here for the night...I hate TV...and it's goin full blast...and then kids will be kids and I don't let nothin' interfere with that...so it's LOUD at my house...I was proud of Carry yesterday...she surprised me in a good way...she hung right in there...God bless her heart...she did good...real good and the little kids did great too...Granny was a happy but very tired gal last night...Butch called today...he's tryin to lay a guilt trip on me about his cancelled visit...I really don't give a shit...balme for that don't seem to heavy from here...I have my plate full and I can't really remember when it wasn't...so his "vacation" got cancelled...big deal...what's that song ,maybe Brenda Lee..."cry me a river"....well, kids, I'm done bitchin' and belly achin' for now...hope you guys have a great night...later gaters Cracker