i'm gettin ready to shag ass off here...today was a day of days and so being what it was...I am going to do my own thang...and I'm going to do it outside...so much chit whirling around my brain...I need the quiet to figure it out....I'd like to write down my first impressions ...but I know it would not be good...then I'm in a state of mind...all I want is some refer and a good stiff mixed drink...go sit on the back porch and calm my ass down....life is a head trip...a real head trip....I gotta go kids...I'm going to get some music...but what suits me tonight?...who knows...not me...it don't matter anyway....just for onriness I ought to play Loretta Lynn...but no...I don't feel like that for sure...take some Seger ...thats it...only I won't tonight...cause thats somebody elese's chit tonight...maybe some blues...we'll see what I come back with...later gaters... Cracker

I'm hidin out over here...seems like I have to go to this f**kin' wedding anyway...called my sister and she was bawlin and goin on...seems the party got an early start..big drunken brawl last night...she's cryin and carryin' on...I guess Reg is on her way...there are three of us girls..I'm the oldest...Susie is the middle one and Reg is the baby....I want to go to this thing like I want an ass kickin'....dammmnnn....much rather be here fightin with Charlie...tonight is our regular night to fight...Fridays too...but I didn't stay long at all last night....in and out...I had the coolest dream...one of those you wish you could go back to...oh hell yeah...anyway...Michele just took Jordan for a hair-cut and wash the truck...Granny is poundin keys...there is a bottle of Crown Royal in the freezer...I might make me a stiff uppper lip just so I'll be ready for the party...we are supposed to have strong winds, hail and severe thunderstorms...yeah...it don't get better than this...drive fifty miles to a wedding you know is going to end in a fist fight..."get high...get drunk...show your ass about right night"..can't hardly wait...I feel like sittin here with this jug and computer and this bein my party...they can tell me all about it tomorrow...my days and nights of that shit are long over...any ole grandpas out there has to feel about the same or he's to far over the edge for me...remembering those times are one thing...but livin them is something I already had the pleasure of doin...and I learned sometime ago.. that the hide don't grow back like it used to...no...now all I want is an easy chair...a mixed drink and my computer...thats a wild night for me...and as wild as I want it...I'm going to find me a hand holdin partner though...I've made up my mind to it...never thought much about it until I got here on the stream and then didn't give it much thought...but here in the last week or so...I think a hand holdin partner might not be bad...nothin to go over the moon with...I've done that here..gone over the moon...dammmmn...well in never-never land I am allowed to do as I damn please and so it is...so it will be...I love you guys...I might sit here and talk myself out of going...made no plans to go to begin with...son of a bitch...I hate bein cornered like this...later gaters.. Cracker

                                      

want to sit here with me and watch the moon come up?...I have a fresh pot of coffee on...you can tell me about your day...was it long?...we don't have to talk..just listen while the breeze sends a sigh through the trees ...

                       

 

how cool is that?...my thanks goes to Mistress Reba who made this sign  and brought it to me...thank you Reba..it rocks....I'm going to write a post on angels that has been on my mind..not now but soon..I have a different out-look on what I think angels are...but anyway..I just wanted to show you my new sign and thank Reba..you all are very kind to me and I want you to know that I am grateful for each and every one of you..love and hugs...Cracker